I can run

Wow it's been a while since I posted. Diet is a disaster but I am able to run outside and I'm getting closer to the 5k in Detroit on May 5th.

Planning to Plan and Easter Weekend

The plan for tonight is to finish off this glutenous weekend by going to sleep and starting over tomorrow. Tomorrow I will wake up, do things right and hit the gym. Then I'll come home and plan. Plan a grocery list and meal plan for the week. Stress seems to be the factor that throws me completely off track. We live a very busy life during the week, so planning helps so much.

Today a friend and I connected a newer level (Hi Rachel!). We're both struggling in the same areas of our lives, weight loss and work at home goals. We've committed to each other to check in with each other daily. The thing I find about being a yoyo dieter is, I know there's 1000000's of others going through the exact same things as me, yet we're all very reluctant to verbalize it. Maybe this could be our new edge to success. Also, I still need to search deeply to find an answer as to why I continually sabotage all of my hard efforts.

This weekend was amazing. It was a great wind down weekend and we have amazing weather. We got to spend lots of time as a family which is rare so I truly cherish it. Took the kids to the park, snuggles and of course the Easter bunny left eggs all over our house.

"Strive to live each day to its fullest, squeezing all the joy you can out of each moment. Instead of measuring your life's value by your progress toward a single goal, remember that the direction you're headed in is more important than temporary results." - Tony Robbins

I hope that everyone else had an amazing weekend! 

I've fallen off the wagon. Again.

I'd love to beat myself up about it, literally. But I know that's not going to  fix it.

I just have to get to the bottom of why I do it. Why do I become lazy? I certainly don't like how it makes me feel.

I could start over again tomorrow. Nothing is stopping me. Nothing has ever stopped me.

I won't quit trying.

Mind set. Mind set. Mind set.

4 week weigh in

I'm happy with my results, but haven't shared them really with friends. Why? Because if I tell everyone I feel like they are probably thinking "ya ya, you're just going to gain it back." It's a possibility yes, but I think with the other changes that I'm applying to my life, better results should be lasting.

I've also lost a total of 12 inches in the areas that I'm measuring. I haven't measured my arms and legs for some reason and I think I'm going to add that in for next month.

I'm at the gym consistently about 5 days per week with at least 50 minutes of cardio. I'm running again on the treadmill and slowly preparing myself to run on pavement. On Thursday of this week I ran 6.4km in 50 minutes, killing over 760 calories according my heart rate monitor. My heart rate gets quite high, around 85% of my max but cardiovascular, I feel pretty good.

Food is also going well. I'm finding a nice balance with consumption and then burning off any extra I may have consumed. I'm having cheat days guilt free which is huge. Cheat days used to completely destroy my diet. Also, I feel like the little cheats that I have are keeping me sane and keeping this journey real!  Most days I have a shake in the morning from It Works, which I add coconut milk to as well as mango's.

Goals over the next 2-3 months are to lose about 19 more lbs and run as much as I can outside on pavement so that I can successfully do a real 5k in Detroit in May.

How is everyone else doing with their goals to obtain better health?

Obsessive

For me, when it comes to diet/exercise or the lack of either, I can become obsessive. I can either eat, breath and live health or the complete opposite and binge and sit on the couch. I can't find a happy place in the middle.

I'm trying not to be that obsessive dieter/exerciser, but as each day moves on, it's happening. I wanted to change that in myself this year, but I'm struggling. I want to just make it a part of every day life for me. Right now I'm focusing so much on calories in and calories out. OBSESSING. I feel if I don't obsess about it, I will screw it all up, and then obsess about that bag of chips and container of dip.

I have to change my mind set. Having the odd indulgence doesn't undo everything you've accomplished. But when I do indulge, I tend to just throw in the towel.

Last week and this have been going well. Cardio is great. I've been doing at least 60 minutes a day when I'm at the gym. I also use a heart rate monitor so that I can obsess even more about my calories burned because we all know the number on the machine is NEVER accurate. My heart rate monitor might not be 100% accurate either but I'm faithful it's at least taking into consideration, my gender, my age and what my actual heart rate is.

One of the areas that I failed in, in previous weight loss attempts (not failed in the sense of not losing, I was losing, but couldn't keep it off) was to eat more when I worked out. I was so focused on having a HUGE calorie deficit. So I was starving and the weight would come off fast. This is changing for me now. I'm eating a bit more when I work out so that it comes off slowly.

So my journey continues.

Off topic, but it is FREEZING here in Ontario, Canada!

One day at a time?

What a crock.

I get that some things should be taken one day at a time, but when it comes to diet and exercise for a yoyo dieter  like myself, plans must be made. One day at time just sets you up for disaster.

Yesterday I set a small plan in motion. And I survived. By survived I mean, I battled my late night munching. Yesterday was a bit of a busy day. Starting at 3, it's go time. It starts with having to get my daughter from school, then immediately going and getting my son from preschool. Once home it's snack time and then my husband arrives home minutes later. He must shower and then leave again right away for his night of karate. Then I have to feed the kids supper, pack them up, drop my son off at my parents and take my daughter to karate. After karate I have to grab my son again and then finally head home. It's then that I got to eat my supper. It was late yes, but I think it made a great difference. I had a few healthy snacks to get me through that time of running around. Small plans, produce huge results.

So since I didn't wake up with complete guilt this morning for snacking out before bed, I'm hitting the gym today. I have to take Kayl to school for 9am and then Em and I are off to sweat. Em won't be sweating, but he's really been missing the fun he has going there and asks almost every morning.

Day 8.

Today should be day 8 of a great weight loss program, but instead I just find it to be another day, eating not so healthy.

I do great at breakfast and lunch. But once the evening comes, I struggle.

I know its because I'm not fully prepared. If I had fruits and veggies ready to go I'd be set. I'm being lazy for some reason.

I want to share my "before, before". Me at my heaviest:

That was in 2007 and I weighed roughly 208-210. I stand only 5'3".

Fast forward to last year, I'd managed to lose a few pounds over the years. So next is my before and after following a great program.

But like always, comfortable or stressed. I don't really know. I gained it all back. This year is dedicated on figuring it all out.  I have to break this cycle for so many reasons. 

Tips anyone? I can lose the weight. But why can't I keep it off?

Healthy Wage

While on Google+ today I seen this come through the feed:

Weight-loss wager: Couple loses 120 pounds, gains $6,000.

Read more on today.com

Boy did that peak my interest.

I'm a professional dieter. I can lose weight easily (sadly I haven't mastered keeping it off).

So the website that is offering the cold, hard, cash is Healthy Wage.

I haven't had much time to look it over as of yet and find out the criteria, but this could be a good thing I think. A motivator.

What's your input? Has anyone heard of this before?

Hello 2013

So today started with my mentally preparing myself for the new year and new changes that are to come. The thing about being a yoyo dieter is you know what works. I can lose weight easily. My struggles come with keeping it off, over calorie consumption and the self hate that comes with cheating with food.

So my breakfast consisted of my fav protein shake.
-1 cup of coconut milk
-1 cup of frozen mangos
-1 tbs of coconut oil
-1 scoop of It Works Vanilla Profit
This shake literally comes out like ice cream so I eat it with a spoon and its filling. I also had my vitamins, thermogenic boost and Greens.

I've also weighed my self in at 165.5 (I was 137 in May). I'm attaching my measurements in a photo for now.

I also started a squat-a-thon. I will make a post about that in a day or 2. Today just consisted of 20 squats.

Just an average day.